I’ve taken my inspiration for the title of this post from Seinfeld – a show we’ve been re-watching on Netflix of late, which was originally pitched as: a “TV show about nothing”.
So this is a “blog post about nothing”.
Does this mean I have nothing to say, or that there hasn’t been anything going on behind the scenes here in the land of Janetti Spaghetti? Far from it!
Yes, I’ve been a bit lax on the blogging front of late. And while work and life have both been busy, it’s more than that.
I’ve had a severe case of blogger’s block.
So I decided to blog about it!
The problem isn’t that I have no inspiration, or nothing to say – far from it. My mind is spinning, and I am having ALL. THE. THOUGHTS.
Blogging is usually the way I process things, but unfortunately that’s not an option at the moment. Some things are private.
However, what I *can* share is that I’ve been feeling rather knocked around by life.
A bit of an overview …
Earlier this year, my team member Lisa was very suddenly taken from us – she received a diagnosis of pancreatic cancer and passed away barely three weeks later.
While the immediate sense of grief and loss has eased, this event has led to a lot of reflection, leaving me feeling quite unsettled.
Then there was the shock of our daughter’s marriage ending. She is back living with us, which means we are now learning a lot more and of course helping support her as she struggles to cope with the fallout.
While we are being strong for her, inside I’m struggling too and often find myself on the verge of tears.
My business continues as usual, but I’m also feeling a bit low about that. You see, it’s awards season and it’s really hard to see other business owners happy and celebrating, upon learning that they’ve reached the finals or even won an award. While I’m thrilled for my peers, I can’t help feeling a bit left out. I’ve been so busy just keeping up with day to day stuff in the wake of Lisa’s passing, that I knew I just didn’t have the capacity or brain space to prepare any award entries. Next year though, watch this space 😉 .
With all the stress of the last few months, it’s probably not surprising that I’ve put on a bit of weight. I saw a photo of myself at an event last week and was horrified! The husbear has tried to reassure me that it’s simply the angle of the photo, or a “wardrobe malfunction“, but I’m not convinced. My clothes are a bit tight at the moment, though I haven’t been brave enough to step on the scales LOL.
It’s funny how so much of our mental health is tied to our appearance (or is that just me?!) – or rather our feelings about our own appearance. I shouldn’t let it get me down, but it does. And I just don’t have the mental/emotional resources to even try to do something about losing weight at the moment.
Sigh.
So there you have it, a blog post about nothing … and yet everything.
I could have just as easily named it something along the lines of:
- Don’t Believe Everything you see on Instagram (if you follow me or even Miss 26 on socials, you probably think we’re having a fine old time! Rest assured, this is very much the highlights reel).
- Dealing with Blogging Block.
- Down, but not Out.
Instead, I went for “A Blog Post About Nothing”. Why? Well, it seems I can’t 100% get away from Search Engine Optimisation (which my business specialises in) … a quick spot of keyword research revealed it would be pretty easy to rank highly for “a blog post about nothing” … even if nobody is really searching for it.
But then Google tells us that something like 25% of all internet searches have never been conducted before, so I know that sometime, some place, people will stumble across this heartfelt little post.
And maybe I’ll be discovered and it will lead to fame and fortune!!!!
Clearly I’m a dreamer an optimist at heart – I’ve long said that the glass isn’t half full, or half empty. Technically? It’s ALWAYS full, of water AND air!
So if you’re worried about me after reading this post, please be reassured – even when I’m feeling down I don’t stay there for long.
Did you still find my blog post about nothing to be interesting and even a bit fun (though not as much as a Seinfeld episode!)?!
Denise says
Janet, you’ve been a bright spot to me for years. I’m all the way in San Diego, but I enjoy your posts and am always happy to see an email pop up.
I was truly sorry to hear about your daughter’s break up. My daughter is around the same age, and broke up with her SO this year. They have an 18 month old together, and while I’m proud of the choices they’ve made to coparent him well, it’s still sad to see it end. I also had a mental health intervention for my older son. He’s doing well, but sometimes I feel like I’m on pins and needles, hoping he’ll continue to be okay.
Just know we’re all here, we’re all rooting for you, and that things WILL be better. It’s been a tough year (and I’m so sorry about your coworker, such a blow) but this season too shall pass. Take care of yourself and give yourself some grace.
Janetti Spaghetti says
Thanks so much for taking the time to comment Denise and for your kind words. I love knowing that my little blog is helping me to connect with other fabulous women even on the other side of the world! I’m sorry about your experiences too. It doesn’t matter how old they get, we never stop worrying about our kids!!! PS I’ve never been to the USA but hope to get there one day and will have to make sure San Diego is on the itinerary 🙂
Denise says
I’d love that!